Stating the Obvious.

I know I have been bitching a lot, I know that you guys are probably completely sick of hearing me tell you how much I hate Oklahoma. I don't know why this is affecting me so much, I normally am a "glass half full" kind of person. I try to make lemonade out of rotten lemons but for some reason I just can't stop the pity party here.

Nobody wants to hear me whine all the time, hell, I don't even want to hear me whine. So why can't I stop?

I want to stop bitching and start doing something but I just feel so hopeless. So far I can only muster a few days at a time of not hating my life.

I want to be happy again but I just don't know how to get there.

I'm sorry that I complain so much, I'm going to try to make myself stop. I'm a firm believer in positive thinking and wallowing in your own misery only brings about more misery. So, I have to stop now before I make this any worse for myself.